CARTER, cameron jace

[CAMERON JACE CARTER]

CAMERON JACE CARTER

NINETEEN , RIU , ROADIE , QUIET , KYLE BURNS, HOMOSEXUAL

i've been told that i get really excited really easily. i never really noticed, probably because i'm the person. i have a tendency to over react about almost anything. i'm just a dramatic person i suppose, but i'm good at keeping things to myself. i'm really just a mixed up person. i also get really into the things that i'm excited about and i try to hype people up, almost like a walking flier... except not really. i don't know. i just like being excited about things.

despite the fact that i'm always excited i like to keep it to myself. really, the only people that see that loud side of me are my closest friends and relatives. when i'm out in public i'm mostly a quiet kid unless someone is trying to hurt one of the people that i enjoy the most. i can get pretty defensive and mean when someone is being mean or harassing someone that's close to me. aside from that, though, i usually walk with my head at least semi-down. i don't have a lot of self-confidence and i don't really know how to deal with stress, but i'm learning.

i've also noticed i get embarrassed or flustered really easily. because of this, i tend to blush.. a lot. really, any little thing can make me blush. whether it's a small compliment, or a statement. if you're talking to me and i find you attractive, i'm blushing. if i get in trouble or get reprimanded in a group of people, my face is red. that's how i've been my whole life, and as much as i hate it, i kind of like it. maybe that's just me coming to terms with myself.

i'm unsure as to why, but i submit to just about anything people throw at me. if you're making fun of me, i just listen and stare at the ground, soaking it all up. if you're hitting me, i most likely won't hit you back because that's not the kind of person i am. i let people do what they want, even if they're just playing with me or toying with my emotions. i'm practically a doormat, people walk all over me... and i let them.

i also kind of have a thing for sex. i mean, i'm not about to sleep with anyone and everyone, but if you show some interest in me and are real nice to me, and i know you, then i'll sleep with you if you want to, though i'll rarely make the first move because i'm afraid of crossing other people's boundaries. and since i pretty much only swing for guys, but lots of guys find that kind of.. off and could be taken weirdly, i don't like to kiss people first or anything like that, though i do tend to flirt without even thinking about it.

throughout everything that has ever happened to me, though, i try to stay on the bright side of things. if i stew over the bad things that seem to surround me, i won't get anywhere in life. if i just look to the things and people i love then maybe one day i'll be truly happy.

so let me start off by saying that i have a younger twin sister named kalyn. she just so happens to be my twin sister, best friend, secret keeper, etc. i love her to death and would do anything in my power to protect her, so when our mother died and our father turned into a drunk i knew that i had to be there for her no matter what. when we were younger he would do things to her, bad things, and so she decided that the more she was out of the house the better. when she started being out more, i started eating less and less because if i left my room i couldn't avoid my dad. now it has become something more than that. more of an addiction, a way of life, something to help me feel better about myself. i've been to the hospital a lot, but i always relapse.

it wasn't long later when my father walked in on my friend, rory, and i kissing in my room. i didn't think it was a big deal, but apparently my dad did. i don't think i've ever been that terrified in my whole life. i let my dad beat me into the closet. not literally into the closet, but you know how gay people "come out of the closet"? that was what i was not ready to do, but i can't help it. i guess i like who i like, but throughout highschool i tried to pass myself off as a heterosexual male, though i didn't do a very good job. i ended up sleeping with a few guys, dating one, but he went off to college before i graduated and we lost touch.

not too long after that, kalyn had her kid and started doing shit with her band and it was just awesome, so when they decided to go on tour i decided to tag along so i could help her with her pregnancy and with her kid.

HEY, MY NAME IS ALYSSA. I HAVE BEEN ROLE-PLAYING FOR 2 YEARS. I PLAY ONE OTHER CHARACTER, AND HERE'S A SAMPLE OF WHAT I CAN DO;

how about no? (check kalyn)

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