FOX , EFFI RHIANNA

[EFFI RHIANNA FOX]

EFFI RHIANNA FOX

TWENTY , RESISTANCE IS USELESS , STYLIST , PROMISCUOUS , MANDY MURPHY , PANSEXUAL

DAY 1 ,

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some basic things about yourself ,

i .. hm . i'll start with the name . i'm effi rhianna fox , and just to clear one little thing up , the middle name is said like ' ry - ahna ' not ' ree - ahna ' . i'm twenty and a born and raised new yorker , though my parents were from sweden . i was born the day before christmas .. and not to be a stingy little fuck - well actually , i am being a stingy little fuck - but i despise when people combine birthday and christmas presents . not even witty , kids , not witty .

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what do you love / hate ,

+ ; clubbing , makeup , music , dressing up , girls & guys , body modifications , high heels , snow , winter , rain , thunderstorms , the smell after rain , the smell of fresh cut grass , tea , big cities , affection , romance , sex , spontaneity , traveling , accents , different languages , partying , sunsets , quirky people , pole dancing , sound , paganism , water guns , water balloon fights , hide and seek , laser tag , coral reefs , starfish , the ocean , roller coasters , having fun , laughing , smiling , cola , monster drinks , dressing wild , having a good time , sleeping in , hookahs , black lights , playing pranks , goofing off , ice cream , her hair being played with , absinthe , macaroni and cheese , incense , candles , candle wax , the dark , blackout curtains , djarum blacks - especially the vanilla flavor , lace leggings , doc martens , plaiting her hair , sleeping in other people's beds , wearing others clothes that smell good , going on absurd adventures , the feeling of sand , the sound when driving under bridges , astronomy , star wars , bedroom eyes , ubstep , miniature grey hounds , snakes , adrenaline rushes , thrills , haunted houses , tarot cards , psychic readings , ouija boards , ghost stories , scary movies , halloween , sweet food , dark chocolate ( surprisingly ) , coffee , caffeine , string cheese , buying new clothes , vitamin water xxx , sushi , attraction , strange / unique people , body paint , sparklers .

- ; southern accents , racist people , stereotypical comments , snide remarks , snippy & stuck up girls , hypocrites ( ignoring that she tends to be one ) , homophobes , bad hair days , going too long without showering , being broke , being alone , overly long car rides , boring bus rides , boredom in general , others opinion's getting shoved down her throat , strict authority , strict schedules , rules , anything overly quiet , being ill , people that are all talk , getting hurt , rejection , emotional pain , stress , frustration , liars , birds in the morning , sun in her eyes , sun burns , her lack of a tan or ability to gain one , plans falling through , bad moods , exhaustion , onions , feeling annoyed , doctors , hospitals , fake tans , the english language , feeling vulnerable , bad scents , tofu , most other religions , police , getting her hair wet , being seen without makeup , feeling self - conscious , nausea , criticism , being scolded , disgustingly hot weather , lack of inspiration , sore muscles , milk , pepper , butter , the sound of clocks / watches ticking , losing people , tension & awkward situations , being demeaned or talked down to , being late , tripping or falling , ringing in her ears .

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confessions ,

i pole dance , not so much for money anymore , but i figure it shouldn't be confused with me being a stripper . i mean .. i'm no angel , don't get me wrong , but i'm not ashamed to tell people i'm a pole dancer because it's never gone past my knickers . plus , if people gave it a chance and took their minds out of their narrow little paths , you'd see how beautiful pole dancing can be .

during a very low point in my life , after i'd ran away and lost myself slightly to addiction , an aspiring and failing model in the concrete jungle .. i fell into the world of prostitution . yeah , yeah , that's awful and that's why i don't tell people . i did have a pimp and it was really only for something like a little over half a year . getting on this tour was kind of my escape from that .

eh , lastly , i had an abusive boyfriend . you know , the typical new york gangbanger , drug dealer kind of guy . things got volatile before i could even get myself out of it , and girls are stupid in that way .

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list some random facts ,

i'm blue - yellow colorblind as of last year due to a car accident and me getting knocked a bit too hard on the head . the doctor said it's possible my normal vision will be regained , but as of yet , there aren't any changes . uh , i'm allergic to dandelions and cats . i think i may be mildly addicted to caffeine . i don't have a drivers license . i cannot stand the feeling of a game controller vibrating . i sleep with one of those baby sounds things .. you know , it sounds like a creak , or birds , or some shit , and the light is all calm . every night , embarrassing ? don't care , ha .

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talk about your family ,

i've got .. a dad and a younger sister . so , uh , yup . rowan fox is my father . he's a bartender , i think , and god knows if i could remember how old he is . we haven't been too in touch lately , which reminds me , i should probably give him a call . and then there's eden . she is .. eleven . and she's autistic . her mother , or my ' stepmother ' , cherice do most of the looking after of my girly .

aside from that there's really no one else we're in touch with at all . my mother passed away when i was born .. it was pretty much a baby or the mother will live situation .

i do like to consider my pets family .. so , there's my pet red - tail boa named cornelius , miniature greyhound named schwarz , hedgehog named icis , and two chicks named dot and jutta . cool shit .

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what do you keep in your bag ,

a pack of djarum blacks , a black zippo , bag of makeup , tail comb , an extra black thong , hair tie's , key chain , nintendo ds , iphone , digital camera , perfume , body spray , balled up & torn leggings , wallet , loads of change , react 5 gum , old hotel room card , cough drops , pens , sharpie , post - it pad , chunky rings , mother's old gold necklace , loads of photos of my little sister , electrical tape , clear , black , & red nailpolish , bandaids , a water gun , headphones , broken watch , candy bracelets , little notebook , a bowl , coke , a birthday card from my sister , broken cross earring , and an extra tongue ring . um , yup , it's pretty fucking loaded .

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places you'd like to visit ,

sweden , the bahamas , germany , australia , new zealand , ireland , aaand russia ! sure !

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favorite tv shows / movies ,

misfits , scrubs , flapjack , adventure time , and buffy the vampire slayer . i know , these are fuckin' quality shows .

aaand there's the dark crystal , the labyrinth , cry baby , the nightmare before christmas , james and the giant peach , sucker punch , pirate of the caribbeans , the secret of n.i.m.h. , the hangover , and grown ups . yay .

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describe what you wore today ,

hm .. black mini that zips up the entire front , gray knee highs with lace at the top , brown buckled ankle boots , a dark gray fringed washed tee , a black and floral bra n' panties set , cross drop earrings , aviators , feather suede headband , and i'm preeee' sure that's it .

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would you ever get a tattoo / piercing ,

well , i've already got piercings and tattoos , ahah . i've got my tongue , belly button , and nape of my neck pierced . aaand ~ a black .. tribal like design on my left upper arm , the outline of a heart on my left index finger , and the name eden in script on the right side of my rib cage . interesting , huh . ;)

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HEY, MY NAME IS HAYLEY. I HAVE BEEN ROLE-PLAYING FOR I COULDN'T TELL YOU .. YEARS ? I PLAY ZERO OTHER CHARACTERS, AND HERE'S A SAMPLE OF WHAT I CAN DO;

pausing in the hallway , passing by a mirror , nikk shifted to look back at her reflection . there was a thick , heavy feeling in her chest at the moment . this was that feeling she was trying to escape when she left everything behind for the few months of serenity in arizona . there was a deep set pain she couldn't seem to get rid of while subjected to all the things that were causing it , and after righting herself and finally starting to feel better , she helplessly managed to get caught right back up in it . swallowing hard , that familiar lump forming in her throat , she lifted both hands carefully as if the air would shatter and break like glass with a quick movement . smoothing each palm over her dark hair she let out a deep sigh . this was too much , was she honestly about to face brenden after getting that tiny bit of news earlier ? yes , tiny , just his fucking engagement . as much as she told herself she was over this kid , that she'd cut off and locked away each and every feeling she'd had for him , that would never entirely be true . he left marks on her that she was sure she'd never erase , and she hated and loved him for that . would she ever meet someone again able to mark her so permanently the way he had ? that was a fear she wasn't ready to face .

moving her hands she poked at her face a bit , smoothing her fingertips across her cheeks bones and down to her jaw . did she look the same as she used to ? she hadn't seen brenden in so long , this was unfamiliar territory for her . she knew very well she didn't look exactly the same , but would she be the same nikk he remembered ? he definitely didn't seem like the same brenden she'd somehow managed to grow to love so fondly . he was engaged . if someone told nicolette that brenden would be engaged in the near future she'd probably choke and die on the bought of laughter that would overtake her tiny frame . engaged . could she even speak that word with his name in the same sentence ? he really must have grown up . as much as she wanted to be bitter about this . to cuss at him for hurting her so badly and not even having the audacity to admit to her that he was going to marry someone she probably had never met - she wouldn't let herself do anything of that sort . happy was what she wanted to be . he was going to get married .. that was wonderful ! he was finally in love with someone so much that he wanted to spend the rest of forever with them . that very thought struck very deeply within her , though . this one female managed to get to him in ways she couldn't have no matter how hard she'd tried . honestly , nikk had tried with every bit and piece of herself to make him love her back the same way . day in and day out , she'd have given anything for the kid , but she simply wasn't what he needed in life and she'd swallowed her pride and forced herself to accept that .

forced herself to go on was what she did . she righted herself in ways she never imagined she could and now , stepping away from the mirror , she bit back with every ounce of will power the sorrow that was threatening to overtake her because brenden was going to be here within minutes and she was going to make herself be strong . despite how much she was aching inside , that familiar sharp aching that left her feeling wounded and unable to move , she was going to swallow it and answer the door with that smile she'd built up over the years . the smile that covered up every last thread of pain inside of her and let everyone believe she was going on fine . she was just a sad , crumbling girl , but she refused to let one person know that . nikk was determined to send brenden away thinking she was happy for him tonight . she may resent him deep down like he'd said , but she would convince him otherwise if she had to .

the knock on the door was simply something she wasn't prepared for , though , because of all that previous motivation within her swept out like a gust of wind the instant his knuckles met with that very door separating the two . despite the screaming in her mind to not answer , nikk blinked back the panic in her eyes and breathed a long , hopefully calming breath . this was just brenden . just brenden , brenden who she was over and was going to send away with her best wishes . brenden who she'd loved and was loving someone in a way he'd never loved her . giving her head a sharp shake she strode across the room , crossing that tiny amount of space quickly because she knew if she hesitated she would never get to the door . grasping the handle she gave it a firm twist , pulling the door open with as much confidence as she could and smiling as soon as her eyes met brenden's face - despite the deep yearning to shatter right then . " hey . " she spoke softly , taking one single step back to open the door further and welcome this boy in .

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